That Feeling Deep Inside

If you have HS, you know the feeling my title mentions. THAT feeling. The one that threatens for a new alien to pop up at any moment, even though the feeling you have is just a little pressure right now. In fact, it's only pressure when pressure is put on it.

Well, after a good 7 years of dormancy under my arms I'm starting to get "that feeling" underneath my right arm. The pain is deep inside right now, at least 2 inches below the surface.

This could be nothing. OR. This could be devastating. I was just trusting my underarms again. Scarred as they are, they don't ooze or hurt any longer. I am praying that this pressure does not turn into pain or redness. I hope that this pressure gives up after realizing that there is nowhere else to scar in this area.

Hell, even when HS goes dormant for a little while my life is still antagonized with that feeling, reminding me that it can return to a somewhat healed area. That it probably will return to a somewhat healed area. And this is the worst part about that feeling inside, that it could or could not return and I have little control over it at this point.